QUEEN OF HEAVEN

The New Moon has come and we are in the expanse of planets as they lift off into a kite formation as black moon Lillith shadows our psyche. A tense square between Mars/Neptune says ‘I see you clearly’ and Jupiter moving direct on the 24th (yesterday) starts a journey of towards Aries on the 21.12.22.

You may feel quite alone. But that is merely the shadow side asking you to do more of the same. Feel lonely, isolated and different. But the part of you that has journeyed through an awakening says ‘I don’t need to do that again! You have already decided you cannot go back to how you were and the world wont let you.

This is where your heart says ‘I am finding the path to me.’

The wisdom (Sagittarius) of the heart is in mutuable energy and that means that it wants to dissolve the ego’s resistance to knowing best and needing hard evidence. What you need now, is a miracle!

With that, comes the heavenly vibration of Mother’s heart reaching out to us. It may stir childhood memories or even traumas for some but the purpose is to bring you back to the earliest formed patterns and go beyond it all to retrieve a sense of belonging to you. No trauma bond that sees you rekindling those fights in adulthood with other trauma victims! You want to go beyond the feeling of not feeling to the state of surrendering to just being. It is not easy and November has been a real test of endurance so far.

The ancients are gathering to call us back to the memory of another journey and we have to relinquish the mantle we wore in this lifetime as a badge of honor. The challenges, the stories, the connections we felt held us back or changed us. We have to forgive it all for what it is, the learning to become more of who we really are. If we say we are all knowing we are lying. We are not all knowing. We have access to the all knowing and yet we struggle to live day to day sometimes. This shift of power back into the matriarch is going to ask that we clean up our act.

In accepting the Divine feminine we do not split men from women we bring about a reunion of the soul. The mother instinct with the father. The missing piece of who we are as a man or a woman. A man may blame his relationship with his mother in all of his future relationships. A woman may do the same with her history with her father. But the lessons to be learned in growing up are that we must come to terms with our first male/female role models whatever they showed us! It does not matter if they nurtured us or tested us they came with the best lessons for us to grow from. God does not make mistakes.

In all challenges from childhood to now we must look deeply at the pattern it created in our own psyche (Lillith). We must look at the shadow it cast on the Sun (our Divine) and bring that light ever further into the hidden places in us. We must leave no stone unturned between now and the start of 2023. This year we leave behind the suitcase marked ‘my journey’ and get ready to pack our bags for a new voyage. No looking back or complaining!

What may this mean for you? Well it may mean acceptance of things you blamed others for. It may mean forgiveness for things you blamed yourself for. But the real discovery will be when you go deeply within your own psyche and walk there without judgment. Take a trip down memory lane. Let the light in you that is Christ hold your hand and walk with you on the narrow corridors of time where you left the remnants of your pain. That pain continues to make itself known as new challenges with old rehashed stories unless you clear them out and clean that path once and for all. Forgiveness is the key. Mary waits there for you to find her.

Mother Mary knows the power of forgiveness is the ultimate test for the pilgrim. It is not an outward visbile thing. It may be so personal only you know and people around you may not know your story but if you can take her hand and hold it as she walks you through the memory of you, she will never let you go. She will never let you feel as if you are alone or abandoned. This is the heart of Mother in the purest form. To not leave you because you let her down or did not respect her as you grew. She knows you will reject her at some point on the journey, just as history shows us. But now as we stand on a new frontier a horizon beckons us. It is not for the fainthearted but it is for the warrior of love who knows the value of surrender is always the journey back home.

Caroline

Mary Sophia

(Aphrodite Beloved)