IN BETWEEN WORLDS…LUNAR AND SOLAR ECLIPSES…A K(NIGHT) APPEARS

We have just gone through the Lunar eclipse in Leo on 31st January …a Blue Moon has two moons in that month, and we are about to experience the Solar eclipse in Aquarius on 15th February.     Being a number 11 year in numerology we are going deeper  into the psyche of self and the mystical union of Beloved.    So much has been written about twin flames and beloveds.    Part of the separation of Self involved the dissolution of the Beloved ray..  the divinely mystical union of our human self with that of the Divine we all hold within us as the Christ.         We are now realising this understanding goes so much deeper than physical love or even material value in our lives.    It has been a painful process for many of us and, depending on our choice, we carried our hearts fully opened out into the ether so as to connect with the divine lineage guiding us back home.

Now as we stand between the gates of the eclipses, one representing the heart and one the mind…the conscious fully awakened mind… we are finding all we held as our truth and our emotional dependents, have fallen away.   We are left bare and naked with our deepest feelings perhaps.    Our shadowy ways are shown to us!   But maybe we should pause to consider the role of the “shadow”.     If the Sun is our Self…our Saviour…and redeems us, the light it casts on us surely shows the figures following us on the path as hidden and in shadow.    And all we considered to be our lesser values and characteristics might perhaps be the voice of our ancient being walking this path again with us waiting for us to realise just this.     The planet Saturn plays a significant role over the next two years ….it is like a vessel helping us “dock” into 2020….But that vessel holds hidden gems.   A Pandora’s box if you like also.     What comes out to be seen will be gritty, real and very human.   But what lifts from our hearts and minds is the burden of holding something so deeply heavy and cruel.    The crime of sin is being unearthed and it is being shed out into the soil and running streams to be washed away and rebirthed with a new name….Mother.    Planet Saturn’s name was Cronus …where the term Crone eventually was used for the wiser older woman.     She was despised, yet feared for her knowledge and her knowing of God.     Her mysticism was that of a breeze   touching the trees in the forest, as the birds sang her name to her Beloved,   She knew the working of nature as it was her own heart whispering to her.

What does this mean for us?   We are all at the crossroads of our journeys.    Leaving behind forever the way we knew…the person we thought we were.     And this new person, this divinely aware person wants to be birthed into the soil where the shadows are just newly springing buds of hopes and dreams that can be created as we wish.   We cannot forget what we have experienced or learned to get here…that is for sure… but we must embrace the not knowing of this newly forming human we are.    The Divine in us is the Christ..with no religious connotation, only that it bears the heart of Yeshua and Maryam’s human journey too.    The ancient secrets are the sacred journey.   Why are they secret because they are sacred!   And you Beloveds are sacred and the secrets you uncover in yourself are the sacred teachings.   No one can teach you them only guide you to those who will point you back in.    Show you the door!    Let you open it for yourself… and yet we have been like babies…. looking outwards for a warm breast to snuggle.   To be given comfort on this journey where everyday conditions and chaos bring us so far away from our hearts with worry and fear.     And yet the one thing we or our ancestors were never taught…. is that Fear is the conditioning of those who reject the Mother and dominate with the mind set of dependancy.     God has always been in question…those who question His existence…as a Being or energy…or part of the Churches way of keeping a   “bogey man” presence there to use as judgment.   Yet the God we seek is waiting for us to find Him and the Goddess we seek …the Mother God is the ground we stand on!    We are about to discover this in our synchronicity developing and our innate understanding of how thoughts are not always ours….but merely clouds floating by  that we happen to glimpse as our feelings.

The eclipses we experience are intense.   Physically, emotionally or indeed spiritually… they will have had a profound effect on your life.      And yet…..somewhere deep inside, which you may not be even able to acknowledge yet, there is a feeling of everything is ok.   Everything in me is beautiful.   I Am all I need.   Shining our light is why we came here.   Whatever we do along the way will be fine… if it enlightens our own path and others see it as a mirror of love.    It doesn’t matter if you write a book, bake a cake or let go of a balloon… you will be here to leave your mark.   And do not doubt this.   But we cannot do what we came here to do or be… if we stand in the spotlight of an old dying light that was hiding the true One.   The true light of Love that shines from within you so beautifully that if you really let it out others would shield their eyes.

Once upon a time a white horse made its way through the deserted cobbled stones of an old town… It came to the square in the village and it was desolate.   The smoke from the fires left a raw smell in the night sky and the air was filled with sadness.    The well stood in the centre of the village with the moonlight shining down on its roof.    Making it appear as if made of silver threads.      The white horse…now almost black from the journey of muddy fields and wounds, made his way to stand tall in the centre of the town once again.    The opened windows of houses letting out the stench of the old were dark and forbidding.    Yet the white horse appeared as hope.   He stood his ground with the colours of his Knight still attached to Him.    Not a sound was made.   The stillness of the moment was eternal and beautiful.    Yet hours before the Knights who came on their pilgrimage of love lay on the outlying fields of this place to rest in the arms of Mother, who would grow them as wild flowers to be worn in the maidens hair once again.

She appeared as if from the starlight.   She stood with her rich green cloak wrapped around her from the night air and the sadness of this place.   A single tear ran down her cheek and she looked at the horse who stood so majestically for love.   As She placed her hand on His face she filled her heart with love and sent it to this beautiful Being who had come to bring the message of Love.    He responded by staring into her eyes and their darkness like pools of water were filled with tears like hers.     The message She sent Him was “Nothing is lost Beloved.   There is no death.   There is suffering and resurrection from the betrayal of humanness that we all carry.    You have carried those who were making their way to the homeland and now you are free Beloved.”    The White Horse bent his head and as She stroked his mane he bent down to give her safe passage from this place where the K(night)s had fallen.     “Before I go She said let me wash my hands from the well and let my tears merge with the water within so that the memory of suffering will be seen one day as one page of the story of love.    Love has so many pages that are yet to be written but my story will not be put down on pages by me but by others who will remember the tears left in the waters and carried by Mother back to the Beloved.”

As She went to mount the horse, Maryam drew back her cloak and lifted the story she carried with the gold shining brightly in the night sky.    Placing its pages in the well she said “I leave this back to the rich waters once again.  And I know you will hear me when it is time and when the heavens have touched your Beloved Heart with Yeshua’s and only then will you remember me and know I have never left you either.”

As She left the pages settled on the water and her writing merged with the darkness of the memories within.    They would settle and one day be carried out to the oceans and be awakened by the warmth of the rising Sun.

 

As we make our way to the Solar eclipse and emerge from delving into our hearts, Beloveds Believe you are where you are meant to be… and if you struggle and refuse to listen to the voice inside guiding you, it will bring you in the perfection of the moment to where you need to be if you allow it.   Be Fearless…. BE LOVED.

Caroline K Beloved.

Maryam Beloved Heart