HEY YOU…YES YOU!!!

MARY….TEACHINGS OF THE SOUL…..

I SAT WITH MYSELF  AND SURRENDERED TO BEING IN THE COMPANY OF MY OWN PRESENCE… IN THE NAME OF GOD…. WHO IS HE/SHE… AND HOW DO I FEEL GOD WITHIN ME?   SO MANY THOUGHTS RUSHED THROUGH MY MIND… SO MANY DARK THOUGHTS AND FEARS THAT I WANTED TO SCREAM.    A SILENT NOISE AROSE FROM MY THROAT AND FILLED MY LUNGS AND AS I OPENED MY MOUTH TO LET IT OUT …. I STOPPED MYSELF……AND IT WAS THEN I KNEW…

THE LONGING TO BE WHO I WAS…TO HAVE PEACE WITH ME WAS SOMETHING I HAD BEEN TAUGHT TO ACHIEVE FROM A VERY YOUNG AGE.    TO BE ME…. THE PRESENCE OF THE DIVINE ON THE EARTH…. WAS TO GO BEYOND EVERYTHING THAT APPEARED TO BE THE OPPOSITE OF DIVINE.   WE CALLED IT HELL BUT I KNEW IT TO BE SOMETHING ELSE.  THE NOISE.   THE SOUND.    WHAT IS THIS SOUND YOU ASK?   IT COMES FROM THE WELL WITHIN YOU.   THE HOLLOW ECHO OF THOUGHTS GATHERED IN THE STREAM OF LIFE.   SOME ARE YOURS AND ALL CAN BECOME YOURS IF YOU CHOOSE.     THE FEAR AROSE IN ME AND OVERWHELMED MY SENSES.  I BECAME LOST TO THE PEACEFUL PLACE UPON WHICH I RESTED.    AND IT WAS LIKE BEING IN A FOREIGN LAND UNABLE TO FIND THE PATH AHEAD.    ALONE AND WITH NO KIND HAND OUTREACHING TO HELP ME….. IT WAS A STRANGE FEELING FOR ME.   IT WAS SOMETHING I HAD NOT BEEN USED TO.   BUT IT WAS SOMETHING I KNEW I HAD TO EXPERIENCE SO AS TO KNOW WHAT PEACE IS… REALLY IS.

I SAT AMONG THE LONG REEDS OF GRASS AND WATCHED HOW I BREATHED…. WHEN IN THIS STATE OF CONFUSION (WE HAD NO NAME FOR ANXIETY AS SUCH… IT WAS NOT PART OF OUR CONSCIOUSNESS… IT BECAME A LOWER ENERGY YOU DEAL WITH IN YOUR CULTURE ..THAT DOES NOT REALLY EXIST BUT IS GENERATED BECAUSE OF THE LACK OF UNDERSTANDING)  MY SHOULDERS RAISED MY HANDS BECAME LIKE MARBLE… AND I LOOKED AROUND ME … TO FIND COMFORT IN SOMETHING FAMILIAR.  BUT THERE WAS NOTHING …NOT THE BEAUTY OF THE LANDSCAPE OR THE FRAGRANCE OF THE BLOSSOMS COULD BRING ME TO MY PLACE OF PEACE AS THEY ALWAYS DID.   WHAT HAD I DONE TO BRING THIS TO ME?   WHAT WAS WRONG?

I WALKED BY THE RIVER AND HEARD ITS BABBLING WATER… AND IT GAVE ME SOME COMFORT… AND AS I WALKED FLIES ANNOYED ME BY MAKING THEIR PRESENCE KNOWN TO MY FACE AND HAIR.    THE IRRITATION IN ME GREW STRONGER AND I WAS SHOWING ANNOYANCE TO EVERYTHING THAT CAME NEAR ME… AN OUTSTRETCHED FLOWER THAT GOT IN MY PATH, A BIRD THAT SANG SWEETLY WAS ALMOST TOO LOUD FOR ME TO THINK.    AND IT WAS THEN AS I STOPPED MYSELF I SAID ALOUD!  STOP THIS I DO NOT WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS!!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG…

AND THE ANSWER CAME BACK TO ME LIKE A STRONG CLAP OF THUNDER IN MY HEART.   NOTHING IS WRONG.   YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING TO BE REPRIMANDED FOR…. YOU ARE FEELING.    YOU ARE GOING DEEPER INTO YOUR SENSE OF SELF.   YOU ASKED TO UNDERSTAND GOD AND YOUR RELATIONSHIP TO THE UNIVERSE.    SURELY YOU MUST KNOW THAT THE GOD IN YOU SEES AND FEELS EVERYTHING WITHOUT TAKING THOSE FEELINGS ON AS HIS/HER OWN BEING.    GOD IS LIKE YOU!   WALKING THE EARTH BEING PART OF IT BUT NOT BECOMING ANYTHING OTHER THAN BEING THE SOURCE OF LOVE.  A FACELESS BEING BUT SEEN EVERYWHERE IN NATURE.      A FEELING SO BEAUTIFUL AND YET POWERFUL SO AS TO BRING IN THE THOUGHTS OF THE COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS IN YOUR MIND FOR YOU TO LISTEN TO!!!   AND YET YOU MUST SELECT WHAT YOU WANT TO BE AND WHAT YOU WISH TO LISTEN TO AS BEING REAL!!!!   YOU ARE THE ARCHITECT OF YOUR HUMAN NATURE.     AND, YES, BELOVED.  GOD IN YOU CAN SHOW YOU THE LOWER VIBRATIONS.   AND YOU WILL SAY THIS IS NOT GOD.   BUT IT IS.   GOD CAN LET YOU LISTEN TO THE LOWER TONES.   BUT THEY WILL NOT BE GOD BECAUSE HE/SHE DOES NOT CLAIM THEM AS GOD.  THEY DO NOT BELONG TO GOD AND SO CAN NOT BE FORMED INTO THE CONSCIOUSNESS KNOWN AS GOD.   THEY CAN BE ADHERED TO BY YOU… THOUGHT OF AND MADE CONSCIOUS IF YOU WISH, BUT YOU HAVE A CHOICE AS YOU LISTEN TO THESE THOUGHTS BELOVEDS.    YOU HAVE THE CAPACITY TO CREATE AT ALL TIMES… YOUR LIFE… AS GOD IN YOU EMERGES INTO THE VIBRATION OF YOUR AWARENESS.   AND AS THIS HAPPENS YOU WILL COME TO A POINT WHERE YOU WILL FEEL… A LOT!!   AND THE SENSITIVITIES THAT BROUGHT YOU TO THIS POINT ARE BEING STRETCHED…. PULLED TO THE EXTREMES OF YOUR  UNDERSTANDING.   PART OF YOU WANTS TO KNOW BUT PART OF YOU WANTS TO CLOSE THE DOOR ON THE THOUGHT THAT YOU HAVE THE CAPACITY TO BE LOWER OR DARKER IN THOUGHTS…. BUT YOUR SAVING GRACE, OR RESURRECTION IF YOU LIKE IS YOU CHOOSE TO RISE ABOVE THE LOWER WILL OR NATURE OF THOSE THOUGHTS.   THE ONES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL LESSER, A VICTIM OR IN ANY WAY SEPARATE FROM THE LIGHT OF ALL CREATION THAT DWELLS IN YOUR SOUL.

I KNEW I HAD BEEN LISTENING TO MYSELF.    THE THOUGHTS … THE FEELING OF LOSING MYSELF TO THE EMERGING FEELINGS OF CHAOS WERE MY OWN DEEPLY HELD EXPERIENCES IN MY SOUL.     I HAD TO BRING THE JUG INTO THE WELL AND GATHER THE WATER AND BRING IT OUT INTO THE SUN!!!

I WAS LIKE THE GLADIATOR… WAITING TO MEET THE LION IN THE ARENA!!  HIS HEART POUNDING… THE BEADS OF SWEAT SWIMMING ACROSS HIS BROW.    AND IT STOPPED ME IN MY TRACKS…. WHY WOULD I FEEL THAT IF I AM SITTING BY THE RIVER WITH NO LION WAITING TO MEET ME!!   WHY WOULD I BE FILLED WITH THE FEAR OF NOT KNOWING THE OUTCOME WHEN I WAS IN THE MOMENT OF PEACE AND SURRENDER?   MAN HAS THE FIGHT IN HIM (AND WOMAN!) OF WAITING TO MEET THE OPPOSITION AND TO BE READY TO MATCH WHATEVER ATTACKS THEM!!   BUT WE ARE GIVEN THAT AS AN ADRENALIN FORCE WITHIN US SO AS TO BE ABLE TO REACT WHEN WE NEED TO!!! BUT IF WE HAVE NOT SURRENDERED TO OURSELVES… IF WE ARE NOT BEING HONEST WITH THE VOICE WITHIN… THEN WE ARE CONSTANTLY LOOKING FOR THE OPPRESSOR OR THE EXTERNAL ATTACK …. AND THERE IS NONE THERE, ONLY OURSELVES.

I LEARNED, BELOVEDS, JUST AS YOU WILL… THAT THE ADRENALIN FORCE IS ONE THAT BRINGS THE UNIVERSE INTO CHAOS.   FROM THAT CHAOS CREATION HAPPENS!!  AN ATHLETE WAITING TO START A RACE WILL FEEL IT.  A MOTHER ABOUT TO GIVE BIRTH WILL FEEL IT… AND SOMEONE STANDING ON THE EDGE OF UNDERSTANDING…THEMSELVES WILL FEEL IT.    BELOVEDS, TAKE HEART.  TAKE YOUR HEART IN YOUR HANDS AND KNOW YOU ARE BIRTHING YOURSELF WHEN YOU FEEL THESE FEELINGS.   WHEN WHEY ARE NOT PHYSICAL BUT IN YOUR MIND AND RUSH THROUGH YOU LIKE ADRENALIN THEY ARE PUSHING YOU TO GO BEYOND HOW YOU THINK AND WHAT YOU KNOW TO BE REAL.    ARE YOU ON THE POINT OF SEEING THROUGH THE LIFE YOU HAVE CREATED AT THE EXPENSE OF YOUR OWN HAPPINESS?  ARE YOU ON THE POINT OF MAKING A JOURNEY TO A NEW PLACE THAT BRINGS YOUR FEELING OF COMFORT TO BE LOST FOR A WHILE.   TAKE HEART.   PLEASE.   YOU HAVE ASKED TO BE AWARE.  TO KNOW THE MEANING OF WHY YOU ARE HERE.   AND IT IS TO BE YOU.  YOU ARE FIGHTING YOU.   IF YOU ARE THE POWER OF LIGHT, AND YOU ARE BELOVEDS.   NOTHING CAN EXTINGUISH THAT LIGHT … ONLY THE MIND… AND THAT IS THE SECRET TO YOUR LIVING PEACE ON EARTH.     IF YOU ARE LIVING TO MAKE SOMEONE ELSE HAPPY WITHOUT SEEING TO YOUR OWN COMFORT YOU WILL BE WAITING FOR THEIR JUDGMENT…. AND IN A STATE OF ADRENALIN… AND IT WILL KEEP YOU GOING AND MOVING FORWARD FOR A WHILE.  BUT THERE COMES A TIME WHEN YOU MOVE FORWARD WITH YOUR KNOWING AND THEN ADRENALIN KICKS IN!! AND IF YOU FIGHT IT …IT BECOMES YOUR AGGRESSOR.   IF YOU SURRENDER.   TO YOURSELF.   NOT TO HIDE THE FEELINGS YOU HAVE BEEN PUSHING DOWN OR TO FEEL GUILT FOR BEING YOU… THE ADRENALIN STARTS TO BE USED UP IN THE DAY… BY WALKING.. CREATING… TALKING… LISTENING… BEING.     IF YOU STORE IT AS FEELINGS OF REGRET, ANGER, LOSS OR DESPAIR… YOU ARE LIKE THE GLADIATOR… WAITING FOR THE NEXT LION TO APPEAR …..

PROTECT YOURSELF?   HOW?  WHY?   NOTHING CAN HARM YOU… CLING TO NO ONE AND LET NO ONE CLING TO YOU.   SEND NOTHING TO ANYONE… HEALING… OR LOGIC… AS YOU CREATE A THREAD FROM WHICH YOU DANGLE!!!    YOU CAME HERE TO HEAL YOURSELF… AND HEALING IS ONLY PART OF THE INITIATION OF LIVING.   I FOUND THIS TO BE TRUE AS DID THE OTHERS EVENTUALLY.   IT IS ONLY PART OF THE JOURNEY TO BE A HEALER… IT IS ONLY THE DISCOVERY OF THE SELF TO HEAL AND SHARE FOR A TIME.   WHEN YOU HAVE GONE DEEPER INTO THE WELL OF YOUR CREATION YOU WILL FIND MORE GIFTS, MORE TALENTS TO SHARE THAT ARE EARTHLY BELOVEDS.   THAT IS WHY YOU ARE HERE.

 

BLESSED BE…

MARY… A WOMAN WHO WALKED THE PATH OF LOVE

CAROLINE K. BELOVED