Hold on… Do not give up or run…. This is not a time for listening to your thoughts that might be wildly invading your senses like a tsunami… There has been a huge wave of energy flooding the planet and the senses and it is the leveling off of this influx of love and Christ light that is overwhelming you beloveds.
Is there no let up to this constant change within my heart and my mind you might ask. What filled me with peace no longer serves me and I have to dig deeper within myself constantly. I have to find what brings me peace within me and it is not something I am used to!!!! Not so long ago I could read a book and find that missing piece, or I could talk to a friend and be filled with reassurance but now I am like Robinson Crusoe on his desert island….looking for signs in the sky and on the horizon.
Firstly, and I say this entirely from my own awareness as I have been experiencing this too, please hold on!!!! Hold tight to your heart and keep digging within it to find the piece of you that is the gold waiting to come to the surface. It is not spiritual at all really, it is an entirely conscious awareness of something being wrong and something being right. The old way of dealing with feelings might not sit well with you any more. Confrontation is something that you want to walk away from. Drama of old patterns and just plain filling in the time with playing out the routine of living causes you to feel uneasy. At times you just want to be on your own and then be with those who do not ask too much of you. Go with those feelings beloveds, do not listen to the mind that will invade you with the old patterns of thinking as they clear from your consciousness. Dive in!!!!! Go all the way to YOU… leave no stone unturned in your passion for living the life you have always wanted by being entirely with you in this moment, no matter how uncomfortable it may be. I WANT TO RUN… you say…and so do I lol…. but I am staying because I came here to do this. I came back one last time to be with the hearts who are kindred spirits of consciousness and love. Who came here to be the lighthouse for the ships going home. I will not let me down. Because within me there are many mes….There are myriad of emotions and aspects of beings who I have been and am and will be and this is the same for YOU. You are not the person who sits in traffic and runs to work. You are more than that but that is a vital force of you too. You are not the person who worries about money and how you will manage to keep everything going smoothly, but that too is an aspect of this beautiful being you are. Dig deeper under the surface of who you are beloveds. It is not comfortable, in fact is very uncomfortable!!! I am in the middle of this as are you. Again you say!!!! I have done this over the last ten or twenty years, is there no end to the clearances I go through and the emotional waves I feel in my heart. Well….No!!! But the beautiful realisation is that once you become aware of the fact that you are unveiling your heart here on Earth you will see each veil as the burden you lay down and release from your heart and the blindfold you take off your eyes so you can see beyond the veils of illusion.
There will be times you have to retreat, and do so. Take time to be on your own and in situations that bring you harmony, ie. in nature or with friends who love to meditate. This is the key. It sounds so new age and out there doesnt it. Meditation and music and candles and incense….so last year… Well get out those candles, light that incense and sit and go into the world thats inside you and you will find the peace and all of the answers to everything. It is a discipline and it is something that requires us to get out of our heads…but it is the key to seeing beyond this very worldly place we find ourselves in where money is the key player and control the lock that sits on the door to freedom.
Do something just because you can!!!! It doesnt have to be put on facebook or twitter. Do it because you CAN!!! With a heart that says THIS MAKES ME FEEL FANTASTIC!!! and do something to make someone happy, even just once a day. The keys to living are all about self. We cannot blame anyone, even when we try, it will come back to our awareness eventually. All of our roles in all of the dramas will return on the waves of energy flooding the Earth in the coming months and years. Trust what you feel. Listen to what you know but give it an authority through your heart only not your mind. The Mind is coming into a time of growth through the heart consciousness and this is called the Cosmic Heart. No matter what you believe, and it may be a very earthly awareness of just get on with it like your parents and ancestors did, there is no denying you can feel a change around you no matter who you are. Get Up and stop complaining. Wash your hair clean your clothes and get your house in order and stop being a wimp!!! Thats not so angelic is it Beloveds… but I make no apology for this as I say this to myself. The poor little me syndrome has to stop unless you want to stay in the high chair and be the child who stops growing into their beautiful new hearts.
The amazing result of all of these changes will be you start to find wonder in the world again… You start to see moments as miracles when you are with someone you love or with a child who makes your heart burst open to their innocent beauty. You may change job, go travelling, give up what you thought was your future. You might have done this over the last year and people will think…”why did he/she do that when it was a pensionable job and so secure..” and you will say because I can!! There is no big dark demon going to crush you for choosing your heart over your head, only your own thoughts that invade your senses and sense of well being from time to time and this is something you can consciously work through.
I mention lightworkers and healers at this point as there is a huge change happening in the heart when it comes to the ability to heal. There are many good natured and well intended people working in all forms of healing and the ones who have helped this energy in will see a change in their roles now. They will see themselves being asked to do more and to go beyond what they thought they could do!!! PLEASE DO IT!!! You are not here to a have a nice web page and quote Rumi!! Thats all very well but it does nothing for the evolution of the heart that is happening.
We have to get our hands dirty on a day to day basis and help those who want to be helped. But there are others who will just want to hear nice words and have their ego massaged and we must let them be. Do not waste time healing people who have no wish to be healed. Their place is assured in the process of evolution but they never came here to be healed they came here to be a challenge!!! Be very honest with yourself Beloved because it is easy to make a new picture of how your history has been, but as healers and human beings we have been very human!! Now we must forgive ourselves and those we thought our tormentors and bless us and them with the way we live in the future.
This is a moment in our awakening when we are nearly at the top of the mountain and almost reaching the very heart of who we are. We dig deeper inside to reach higher into the consciousness of the Christed heart, the Cosmic heart and we have been very worldly to achieve this. We have made mistakes and we have been very childish but beyond the reasoning of why and how we must go into the very centre of our core being who is conscious and awake to find them sitting in the temple of our hearts. Welcome the Child of the Universe that is YOU, the Christed child of the Cosmic Heart. Bring that child out and see them as the Being who came here to live Heaven on Earth.
NO MATTER WHAT IS HAPPENING AROUND YOU, HOWEVER BIG THE CHALLENGE…YOU ARE RIGHT WHERE YOU WERE MEANT TO BE AT THIS MOMENT. WELL DONE!!! YOU ARE THE BRAVEST HEART BELOVED…
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